OKay people I have something to tell you all. You might be annoyed or disappointed in me but I don't care. All I care about right now is my loved ones.
Okay so here it goes. I have a boyfriend named Alex Hessel, and i'm in love with him. I love him to death. But a while back I cheated on him. This made me feel like shit for hurting him so ba like this. I knew how I felt, but he never told me how he felt.
He told me that I didn't hurt him when I did this. Yet...I don't believe that...I mean yeah I love him to death but still. When you hear that you didn't hurt the person you loved so much when you cheated on them, how would you feel?
This made me feel for a while like he didn't care about me. I got over it soon enough. Then now something else is happening. One of my friends really likes me, but I'm in love with Alex and he knows that.
Now everyday I feel like I'm hurting someone so very close to me. I feel my heart begining to break inside of me...or was it broken to begin with..I don't know.
Anyway, I feel like me and Alex are a batch of fresh baked cookies dropped on the ground. No matter what you do to them they never taste the same. And I think he doesn't even know the cookies have fallen yet.
This is my delema, no one can help me...no one truely nerstands my feelings. And if they say they do they only half understand this. If you've ever felt like this please contact me, 'cause I know how much your heart aches even though I can never really truely understand your exact feelings.